sadistic tendencies

JOHNNY-SAN, I LOVE YOU!! xDDDD

IT'S TRUE!! IT'S OFFICIAL!! THE LONG WAIT IS OVER!! Uchi and Kusano are REALLY going to be back.. They'll be in TRAINEE level.. Is that lower than Jrs? O_o;; Waa, I don't care.. THEY'RE GOING TO BE BACK!! *breathing heavily*

I so love Johnny-san!! *cries* I've been waiting for this moment.. I want to see them again.. *cries again*

Oh, NewS is going to come back, too!! 8DDD BUT, they'll only be SIX MEMBERS.. ;__; No Uchi, no Notti.. There's also a new Sayaendou PV.. It has animated NewS in it [just the six members].. xDDD

When I first read saihara's title, I got so excited.. I was like DOKI DOKI DOKI DOKI DOKI DOKI.. and I was breathing heavily.. Then I read her entry, and then I was crying.. Huwaaa..

NewS is going to be in tomorrow's COUNTDOWN!! WOOHOO!! WHAT A WAY TO WELCOME YEAR 2007!! This is what I wished for to happen.. I'm so happy.. *cries*

JOHNNY-SAN, please!! *bows down* I will love you for the rest of my life if Uchi and Kusano and NewS will really be back!! And please let Uchi back in K8..

*cries again*

THIS IS THE BEST CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEAR GIFT!!

THIS IS THE BEST NEW YEAR!!

...and for some reason

There's this sound inside of my heart.. I can always feel it.. always hear it.. These intense waves that don't seem to vanish.. It continues pounding in my heart..

After a while, I finally found out that it's your voice.. calling my name.. over and over again.. I won't ever let go of your hand.. I'll hold it tight, and hold you tight..

...

I keep on having the same dreams.. over and over again.. And every time that I wake up, I always end up crying.. Why can't these memories vanish?? Why can't the PAST leave me?? Why can't my love for you fade away??

Those old times.. it hurts my heart, and I feel like sqeezing it hard to stop it from hurting.. Why can't I stop draming of you.. of how we were.. of how I felt..

...

It's been a long time since that day that we both said goodbye, but still.. I can hear the same voice inside of my heart.. why??

~//~

...I feel like crying right now *sigh*

:D ~ D:

I don't know if I'm going to be happy or if I'm going to be sad.. >__>;;

We won the debate, and I'm happy that we did.. I wasn't awarded with any special awards, but Ma'am Hermie didn't say any bad comments about me.. Hehe.. When Ma'am Hermie already said the winner, I was so relieved.. *phew*

It's also our last day of school this 2006.. 8DDD IT'S OFFICIALLY OUR CHRISTMAS VACATION!!~ YAY!! We had so much fun with the games earlier, and the food was absolutely delicious.. *drools* Kyahaha..

*cough cough* My throat hurts so much.. >__>;;

After the party, Bianca, Angela, Via, Rojean, and I went to the mall to get our picture taken.. We were so happy, 'coz it was such a long time since we all went out.. We bought some drinks, and sang some songs at the Karaoke Center.. 8DDD [That's why my throat hurts so much.. =_=;;]

I LOST MY BAG.. X_X;; Before singing at the Karaoke Center, I noticed that my bag wasn't anywhere.. We went to the place where I placed it, and obviously, it wasn't there.. ;~; My bag with my money, my new cellphone [and at last I got a new one, but OMG, I don't have a cellphone right now AGAIN!!], 3 gifts that my friends gave me, that awesome Christmas card that Ube gave me, some make-up, a new perfume, some important papers, and my favorite pens.. X__X;; And that bag isn't even MINE!!

*sigh* I feel so down right now..T_T;; Back in second year, I also lost my cellphone during this time of year [near Christmas], and the bag that I was using at that time wasn't mine, as well.. =_=;; *sigh* *cough cough*

For now, I'll cheer myself up by watching some videos..

Oh, and 'coz I have no money, and my mother isn't going to give me money [She isn't really blaming me for it, but I know that it's my fault, but since she just got me a new phone and IT GOT LOST, she said that I should cut the expenses..], I won't be able to have fun this Christmas.. No going out with friends, no nothing.. *sigh*

Anyway, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!

FTW~

I am sleepy.

I am tired.

I am stressed.

I am hungry.

I am thirsty.

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JE IS STILL TAKING OVER MY LIFE..